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its been a lomg time coming [May. 17th, 2009|01:26 am]
[mood | sad]
[music |zzzzz]

so its almost been two years since my last post.
i have no idea what made me log onto here right now
but it was super weird that i did.
i just spent alot of time looking through my old posts.
wow.
have i grown up since then i wonder?

ill be 22 in 2 days..
no longer even close to being a teen anymore.
i guess finally an adult?

doesnt feel like it.

as i read my old posts i realize that nothing has changed.

i basically still hangout with the same people.

nick.. who i noticed i wrote about more then anyone just left my house before i logged on.
and random but it had been about 2 months since i have talked to him previous.
the hideous circle starts again....?
i dont even want to think about it. our longer then normal hug was too much for me to handle in itself.

well i think that writing in this thing is a grrreat idea.
reading back i remembered a million things i forgot about
an read about a million things that i have no idea what i was talking about at all.


ill catch up with you later.
its bed time.

hopefully ill KIT :]
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let the good times roll [Aug. 29th, 2007|06:57 pm]
[mood | artistic]
[music |fall out boyy]

today after my trip to the mall
i ventured into downtown ventura.
its amazing.
there are tons of little shops and thrift stores.
and there is the mission
and some really pretty parks
and a few museums.
i loved it.

im going to go on a photo safari there.

it will probably be alone since i dont have friends yet.
but its chill.

i love it.
soo relaxing.
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i need you so much closer.. [Aug. 28th, 2007|12:12 pm]
[mood | anxious]
[music |paramore]

it's exactly 118 miles from my moms house in corona
to my new house in oxnard.
its close enough to go back if i need to
but its far enough to be far far away..


new life=more lj postings... i hope..

i wanna remember this.
but dont worry im not going to forget the old days.


too many wonderful memories.
too many bad ones.
my entire life was left behind.
and here i am.. ready to star a new one..
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baa [Jul. 16th, 2007|05:21 pm]
[mood | confused]
[music |deathcab]

so i guess i should start updating again.

since my life has changed to something soo amazingly different.
its almost scary.

and i dont know what to do about him.
more effort or less?
you tell me silly.

life has its ups and downs.
lately its all been up.
but that only last for so long
before it all crashes back down
and im miserable again.

hates it :[
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christopher walken [May. 4th, 2007|11:41 am]
[mood | curious]

To see an actor or actress in your dream, represents your pursuit for pleasure. 
Your admiration of a particular celebrity may lead to a desire to have some of their physical or personality traits.

To see a particular actor or actress in your dream, look at the role they are playing. Even though you may not know them on a personal level, 
how you perceive them or the characters they play can provide understanding in how it relates to you. 

To dream that you are being carried off by a certain celebrity, indicates that you need to carry and acknowledge certain characteristics that the celebrity portrays. What is your impression of this celebrity and what do you believe is true about them. Another interpretation of this dream is the notion that celebrities tend to be modern day heroes. In this regards, they take the place of the archetypal motifs of the hero. Thus the dream decpicts your ideals, goals and your own journey of creativity.
 

To dream that you are good friends with a celebrity, represents your idealized version of someone you know in your life. Perhaps you hope that a real-life friend can act more like a particular celebrity. Consider the qualities that you see in this celebrity and how you want your friends to have those qualities.

To see snow in your dream, signifies your inhibitions, repressed/unexpressed emotions and feelings of frigidity. You need to release and express these emotions and inhibitions. You may also be feeling indifferent, alone and neglected.

To dream that you are playing in the snow, indicates that you need to set some time for fun and relaxation. 

To dream that you are on a date, suggests that you are getting to know some hidden aspects of yourself. You are acknowledging your hidden talents. Alternatively, it may reflect your anxieties about dating or finding acceptance.

 If you dream that you are holding hands with someone, represents your connection with that person. Your dream may also reflect anxieties about losing touch with him/her or that you are drifting apart. the left hand symbolizes your graciousness and feminine, receptive qualities

To dream that you are drinking alcohol, denotes that you are seeking either pleasure or escape.

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hmm.. [May. 3rd, 2007|10:24 am]
[mood | chipper]
[music |timbaland]

To see a ship in your dream, denotes that you are exploring aspects of your emotions and unconscious mind. 
The state and condition of the ship is indicative of your emotional state.

To dream that you or something is sinking, suggests that you are feeling overwhelmed and that someone or something is pulling your down. You may be experiencing lowered self-esteem and confidence. Alternatively, some important and significant stage in your life may be coming to an end. Consider what is sinking and its significance.
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:'[ [Apr. 20th, 2007|06:57 pm]
[mood | lonely]
[music |timbaland ft fall out boy]

To be despised
To be loved
To be dreamt of
To be sought
To be inside
I don't care
Right in the middle
I'm right in the middle
To be despised
To be loved
To be dreamt of
To be sought
To be inside
I don't care
Be my unholy
My one and my lonely

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nigarettes [Mar. 7th, 2007|10:32 am]
[mood | annoyed]
[music |fall out boy]

ive been sick fordeva now.

and it wont go away.

i think its has more to do with then just my health.
because alot of things have been on my mind lately.
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... [Feb. 23rd, 2007|12:06 pm]
[mood | crazy]
[music |evaline!!]

taste of chaos was veryy funn.

me and nick are on good terms

i love my sophia
and i love my calli..
sucks that it kinda has to be seperatly.

thats all for now.

oh and i need a job :(
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cloud nine [Feb. 13th, 2007|03:16 pm]
[mood | excited]

things are looking

up
up
up!!
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mt. [Feb. 10th, 2007|11:41 am]
[mood | energetic]
[music |fall out boy]

getting high gives me a new appreication
for the world.


this time it was for the mountains
and sitting in the middle of a lake
sourounded by snow
with an old friend.






p.s. party at my house tonight


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ah shit [Feb. 3rd, 2007|11:50 am]
[mood | anxious]
[music |fall out boy]

so i did it.
i graduated.

finally.

my life can now begin..
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wella [Jan. 26th, 2007|05:32 pm]
[mood | crazy]
[music |my chem]

To dream that you are cutting your hair, suggests that you are experiencing a loss in strength. You may feel that someone is trying to censor you. Alternatively, you may be reshaping your thinking or ambitions and eliminating unwanted thoughts/habits.

To dream that you are combing or styling your hair, suggests that you are taking on and evaluating a new idea, concept, outlook, or way of thinking. You may be putting your thoughts in order and getting your facts straight. A more literal interpretation suggests your concerns about your self-image and appearance.

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(no subject) [Jan. 23rd, 2007|11:22 pm]
[mood | whatever]
[music |mae]

i fucked up..
along time ago.
its ture.
at least i know my faults.
and i know who i hurt
and how i hurt them
and im not too ahsamed of myself
to admit it.

and im not lying anymore.
its getting old.

im not going to bring up shit from the past
to justify myself.

and im not going to blame everyone else..
i know i made my own decisions.
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p.s. [Jan. 23rd, 2007|07:25 pm]
[mood | annoyed]
[music |nightmare of you]

fuck you.
yes you.
you're full of shit.
and your a god damn liar.
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it makes you think too much [Jan. 19th, 2007|05:26 pm]
[mood | determined]
[music |brand new]

i decided today to stop letting shit get to me so much.
this is my life
and i have to learn to enjoi it
no matter what curve balls it throws me

i know there are alot of things i have to deal with
but why cant i just deal with them and move on?

i have to stop letting all the bad shit
become more important to me
then all the good things i have.

i have to stop letting all the bad shit
change my personality and the way i act
and the way i treat others.

you live and you learn.
much better then what ive had in my mind lately:
life sucks and then you die.
i dont want to think like that anymore.
everything that happens, happens for a reason
and you learn something somewhat benificial
from every situation you go through.

i have learned alot from the mistakes ive made
and i was hoping that others could learn from my mistakes too
but thats not always the case.

its definately true that you dont always think before you act.
im one that knows that first hand.

and ill apoligize..
for everyway that ive fucked up.
not that it changes that ive done it..
but just so its clear that i am sorry.
im sorry if i have mistreated anyone
or if ive treated anyone in a manner i shouldnt have.
im sorry if ive made anyone feel used
or like less of a person then they really are.

i understand that no one is perfect
i dont even think that there is such a thing as perfect.
trust me i should know.

but this is my life
and everyone that is a part of my life
effects what i have to go through.
same goes for others
where i am a part of their life.

i belive that time heals everything
and in my situations now
i really hope that its true.
i just hope that it gets better sooner then later.

the next chapter of my life is about to unfold
and im so fucking excited..



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(no subject) [Jan. 18th, 2007|05:25 pm]
[mood | depressed]
[music |...]

So if you made it
Just be glad that you did and stay there
If you ever feel loved or needed
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones..

And if it's over
Just remember what I told you
It was bound to happen so just...
Keep moving on
There are no perfect endings
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(no subject) [Jan. 15th, 2007|01:17 pm]
[mood | weird]

To dream that you are on a boat, denotes fruitful endeavors and that your plans will go off without a hitch. Luck will be right beside you. 

To dream that you are taking a shower in clear, fresh water, denotes spiritual or physical renewal or the need to wash a burden out of your life. It is also symbolic of forgiveness.

To see an attic in your dream, represents hidden memories or repressed thoughts that is being revealed. It also symbolize your mind, spirituality, and your connection to the higher Self. Alternatively, it signifies difficulties in your life that will hinder you from attaining your goals and aspirations. However, in the end, after a long period of struggle, you will overcome them.

To dream that you are being massaged by your ex-boyfriend, suggests that you need to let go of some of that defensiveness that you have been putting forth. You may have been putting up a wall or armor around you. You need to learn to trust people again.

To dream that you are in the bedroom, signifies aspects of your self that you keep private. It is also indicative of your sexual nature and intimate relations.

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lets hope so [Jan. 12th, 2007|10:51 am]
[mood | bored]
[music |something corporate]







Even if you know what you must do now, 
there's a part of you that feels lazy and just doesn't want to do anything about it. 
Nevertheless, you will still put your best foot forward and turn on your 
charm to make the day bend to your advantage. 
If you don't get stuck in a bad mood, 
today could prove to be a whole bunch of fun.

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crack pipe [Jan. 9th, 2007|10:16 am]
[mood | stressed]
[music |brand new]

These are stressful times for you, for it may be impossible to keep life as simple as you wish. 
Your compulsive desires are mixed up with other people's feelings and it can get in the way of work. 
Your attempts to sort it all out only make matters more complicated. 
Be patient; you will solve the dilemma, but it will take time as well as determination.



god its creepy how exact this is.
wow.
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